I am a miserable person. Full of resentment.
Reconciliation has been made.  I thought thats all that was needed.  But my husband still wants to leave our church. 
and I don't.

Aw... the rollercoaster of circumstances... just when I think it's over.  I'm aware that life's circumstances will always be up and down, but can I get on another rollercoaster already... i mean, really?!

I am starting to learn how to at least go through these circumstances without panic.  I'm not sure if it's being numb, being steady in my faith or just getting used to the ride.

Well the meeting has happened. It went better than expected. My husband was able to openly share his hurt and my father not only received the information given, but apologized for any hurt he caused. My husband also apologized for any hurt he may have caused throughout this very long process.