The end... oh, wait, there's more...

Well, I'm sitting in my office, listening to the storm outside the window. It's our final night in our home of four years. We came into this home as a family of four with a 5 month old baby (she is now 4). We leave a family of five, with a 6 month old. So many memories...


I've been numb up to this point. Or maybe I've just been extremely busy packing. So here I am, the kids are all tucked in bed; the husband has called it a night, and I am... sad (I think).

I've never been one to dwell on memories for a long period of time. I don't like being too sentimental. I think it's mainly because I don't like the feeling of sadness when I realize that the memory, great as it could have been, is in the past never to come back. How sad... Why can't we just stay there? Stay 5, 10, 16, 18, 21, 25... Alas, the years keep passing by; the calendar keeps turning.

HOWEVER... yes, it's a big "however", when I think about what God has done, using this thing that we call "time", I'm thankful that time keeps going. It has to! Because the Nicole that is today, is not the Nicole that was at 5, 10, or 25 and thank God for that! He uses those moments... those eventual sentimental memories... to form us! Even the ugly memories... they form us! Every moment, every memory... And for a life surrendered to a Mighty God, oh what a formation! I formed up to a point, then I met Him and He is now TRANSforming me!

I'm really uncertain as to what our future holds in this new location, but it's a new chapter... so let's read on...

So I turn the page... admitting when I’m reluctant, and reminding myself that my life is not my own. And I rest upon knowing that it is for my good... for His glory!